Reality...

This post has been started about a hundred different ways in my head this week but today I am finally putting words to "paper".

Today while I was running I was struggling.  I listen to music while running (but not with headphones) so my mind tends to think through things.  Today, my mind pinged from friends dealing with various struggles (financial, personal, and medical) to my singleness and my desires for that to change (and how to do so) to my health coaching, to my plans for the day, and lastly, why running/exercise/nutrition have been such a struggle for me lately

That last one- something clicked today- I realized why I was struggling more so with my running than a year ago.  Reality check #1- I lost about 30 lbs but since May I have gained about 20 of them back.  The interesting thing is- I still have people telling me I look great.  I don't feel great.  I can tell every one of those 20 lbs have come back. 

So, what has changed?

My eating- I got very lax in my eating habits.  I quit tracking my food.  I have eaten foods that I should not be eating.

My exercise- I still have not established a consistent routine- I MUST do this- my stress level has been ridiculously high (higher than ever before).  I am watching my fatigue level, my weight, and my naps increase.  At the same time, I am watching my healthy habits, my "me-time" and my exercise decrease- both in quantity and quality.

I NEED, for the sake of my health (and those around me) to get back on track and take back my health one step at a time- so my first step is to set one goal per week in each area. 

My nutrition goal for this week is simple- to track my food intake.  If I can get back on track with this- I turly think I will see results.

My "me-time" goal for the week- take 15-20 minutes per day to just free journal.  This is on top of my Quiet Time- no computer, no iPad, no phone!  Just me, a pen, and a notebook.

My exercise goal this week- this week will be crazy!  Monday, I will be picking up my car (had to have body work done).  Tuesday- I will pack and Wednesday- Sunday will be spent out of town (wednesday is a work and travel day).  So- my goal- to exercise 3 times this week- I will have to use the treadmill at least once, possibly a dvd and a run while in Ohio.