Lately I have felt this sense of urgency that something (or some things) needs to change. I am like a hamster circling in his wheel over and over- doing the same things, day in and day out, with no end in sight. There's a scene in While You Were Sleeping where Lucy (Sandra Bullock) is talking to her boss and has handed him the wedding invitation. He asks her if she was insane and her response is: "Yes, Jerry. I'm insane. I go to work and I sit in a box like a veal. I work every holiday, I go home to a cat and now a rich and handsome man has asked me to marry him and I've said yes. OK. That makes me a total raving lunatic."
Well, other then the fact that I don't have a cat and nobody has asked me to marry him- this is how I feel. So, lately this has been my focus.
It's why my posts have been sporadic, and maybe a little more philosophical/thought provoking than my normal fitness related/running posts. My time seems in high demand lately (this week alone I had an 11 hour day, a 12+ hour day, and 2 10 hour days) so the downtime I have had I have been spending it focusing on where it needs to be spent- my heart. Unfortunately, my physical side of that has slowed down (at least this week). I have done what I could when I can- next week my time should be different and I can do more. All I know is that I am still working to find that balance.
So, in the meantime- I will slow down, take some time outdoors, have sporadic blogging, focus on my various relationships, LIVE, and be still just to hear what is being said. In all of that, I hope to rediscover my joy for life (I'll be honest and admit I have been struggling with that lately).
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